take a look at my new blog address

http://dallaskhl.tumblr.com

well that blog posts will all be much shorter

its been 5 times since it started
and the results
5 failures
0 success

guess im the one always taking the fall..

all of a sudden

while stuck in camp alone doing duty

"something" just came to my mind after sometime of being low profile

and now i just cant get my mind off it...

if life can be like mangas/animes/dramas...

a definition that i find it interesting

people should be doubted.

doubt humans. question them, suspect them, take a good look into their hearts.

doubting people is simply a part of trying to get to know them.

"trust" is a noble act

but is actually giving up trying to understand others.

and that is nothing to do with "trust" but is rather "apathy"

-quote from liar game-

(meaning of apathy:

ap.a.thy

1. absence or suppression of passion, emotion, or excitement.

2. lack of interest in or concern for things that others find moving or exciting)

today is not a good day for me
everything is not going smoothly
having lots of errors all of a sudden
haix. a time of downturn...
haix =(

woah its been some time since i last blogged

well the fact is there is nth much things happened that allows me to blog about
ha..

everyday doing the same old cycle. becoming very very routine. so thats how boring my life is now.

well something interesing i found out about myself thru my own records. i just found out that i have records of hypotension (low blood pressure). gee. didnt know that. no wonder sometimes i feel a slight pinch of giddiness if i push myself to hard while running.

well. anw there is nth much happening. lets hope something fun will happen soon

itsbeensolong.
yetistillcantletgo.

its been some time. and my sprained leg is still feeling pain when i put pressure on it like running and jumping. guess i shld go for a check up on my leg to find out wads wrong. damn.

so how nowadays im living day by day letting it go by with no aims at all. just wasting my time day by day. is there any thing for me to aim and fight for? its just so pointless with nothing that i can aim to achieve or so. how i wish it can be like it use to be. where i have things to aim to. to improve on and to look forward to everyday. so aimless...

anw watched some shows and it just brought to my attention that humans really are complicated. we can do things easily but we at the same time chose not to do it as it is easier. like sometimes just saying a few more words like "please", "thanks", "welcome", "no problem" can show polite-ness and bring on a smile on a person, but we chose not to say it as an easier way to end conversations. and it not as polite and smiles will nvr appear.
also we can be easily contented and be happy. sometimes just small things/gestures/actions can make a person happy, but at the same time we always will try to achieve more to be happier. why cant we sometimes just be contented with what we have? why are we always trying to go higher and have more?

pardon me for this post. as sometimes wad things says in shows can be true. oh wells and i maybe just bored.. and trying to update something on my blog.

apprently im still holding on i don't know why...