take a look at my new blog address

http://dallaskhl.tumblr.com

well that blog posts will all be much shorter

its been 5 times since it started
and the results
5 failures
0 success

guess im the one always taking the fall..

all of a sudden

while stuck in camp alone doing duty

"something" just came to my mind after sometime of being low profile

and now i just cant get my mind off it...

if life can be like mangas/animes/dramas...

a definition that i find it interesting

people should be doubted.

doubt humans. question them, suspect them, take a good look into their hearts.

doubting people is simply a part of trying to get to know them.

"trust" is a noble act

but is actually giving up trying to understand others.

and that is nothing to do with "trust" but is rather "apathy"

-quote from liar game-

(meaning of apathy:

ap.a.thy

1. absence or suppression of passion, emotion, or excitement.

2. lack of interest in or concern for things that others find moving or exciting)

today is not a good day for me
everything is not going smoothly
having lots of errors all of a sudden
haix. a time of downturn...
haix =(

woah its been some time since i last blogged

well the fact is there is nth much things happened that allows me to blog about
ha..

everyday doing the same old cycle. becoming very very routine. so thats how boring my life is now.

well something interesing i found out about myself thru my own records. i just found out that i have records of hypotension (low blood pressure). gee. didnt know that. no wonder sometimes i feel a slight pinch of giddiness if i push myself to hard while running.

well. anw there is nth much happening. lets hope something fun will happen soon

itsbeensolong.
yetistillcantletgo.

its been some time. and my sprained leg is still feeling pain when i put pressure on it like running and jumping. guess i shld go for a check up on my leg to find out wads wrong. damn.

so how nowadays im living day by day letting it go by with no aims at all. just wasting my time day by day. is there any thing for me to aim and fight for? its just so pointless with nothing that i can aim to achieve or so. how i wish it can be like it use to be. where i have things to aim to. to improve on and to look forward to everyday. so aimless...

anw watched some shows and it just brought to my attention that humans really are complicated. we can do things easily but we at the same time chose not to do it as it is easier. like sometimes just saying a few more words like "please", "thanks", "welcome", "no problem" can show polite-ness and bring on a smile on a person, but we chose not to say it as an easier way to end conversations. and it not as polite and smiles will nvr appear.
also we can be easily contented and be happy. sometimes just small things/gestures/actions can make a person happy, but at the same time we always will try to achieve more to be happier. why cant we sometimes just be contented with what we have? why are we always trying to go higher and have more?

pardon me for this post. as sometimes wad things says in shows can be true. oh wells and i maybe just bored.. and trying to update something on my blog.

apprently im still holding on i don't know why...

its been quite some time i last remb i sprained my leg seriously. and today i apparently sprained it badly.

well i was going down the stairs, and while trying to avoid some ppl coming up and i missed a step and slipped, and my right leg landed in an awkward position.

following that i hear a "crack" sound popping from right leg. and after that i felt numbness in my leg. and at that moment i knew it. i have sprained my ankle.

yup and i was right. after taking out my boots. my ankle was already swollen and now it has swollen till quite big and having pains while i walk. oh wells. i guess its gonna take some time for it to heal.

and now it feels weird. as my ankle easily feels tight and like it can easily have the "cracking" sound.

hope nothing serious is happening

ok time to clean up some dust and maybe cobwebs from my blog.
i just notices its near 1 mth since i last blogged. guessed im too lazy and didnt have anything much to blog about too anyways.

been too lazy to blog and end up playing games or watching HK dramas.
oh btw i started to start studying for SAT. but not making any good progress thou. not really studying much as i wanted to. hopefully i can get more motivations.

anw. rite. went to COMEX 2009 yesterday. as usual crowded and packed like sardines. esp its a wkend. didnt really went there and have a look ard. wnt there. straight to creative booth. get my new zen x-fi 2 mp3 player. and im out of there. dont really want to go around squeezing with the other ppl.

after that. headed down to bugis to have a game of gundam senjo no kizuna. for more info of this arcade game. the webby link is below:
http://www.gundam-kizuna.jp/english/index.html
quite an interesting game. but abit ex thou. so card afford to really play alot. only one game. unlike some gundam anime geeks there. having who knows where they get the money from. and camping there for a machine.

after that is back home and start to explore my new mp3.

well thats much about it recently. nth perculiar happening. so explains my out-dated blog.
hope i can be active enough to update more

its been a long time since i met you
been some time i really talk to you
i wonder when can it all happen again...

i have reached the end of the road.
now lost with no where and no idea to go
why am i so stupid to continue knowing whats at the end with all the pieces i have and guessing it correctly.

i guess the emptiness within me will nvr be filled.
after all. everything, after trying so hard. really ended up only as my wishful thinking.
guess no happy fairy tale ending can ever happen to me.
numb? blocked out? i do not know.

i guess its time for me to fall back into darkness and my old emo self once more.
blocking everything out with a fake mask of smile.

end...
for those who do not understand this feeling and do not know anything at all. pls save ur comments to yourself

jigsaw puzzle pieces falls into place
the picture is out with just a guess
all the best
my blessings...

something is on my mind right now.
i wonder what im thinking now is true.
if i can just have more clues.
if i can just ask you directly.
it seems alot of things are going in thru my head now.
i wonder if they are true.
if only i can just ask you.
envious...

i just hope that if there is anything i can know
the truth?
so that all knots will be untied...

blah...

i guess if anything happens i wont be missed by anyone. crap...

semi- personal post coming up

firstly. a insperational video i came across on facebook. if only i had saw this vid sooner. maybe...
http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/video/video.php?v=103965021495&ref=nf

now maybe i will be happier? never know...

if only i can just talk to you.
if only i can do something to know what is going on.
if only i can just be by your side.
if only i can do such things for you.
if only...

New english album by Utada Hikaru. one song that really stuck in my head and i find it real nice. below is the song

Utada Hikaru - Apple and Cinnamon
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Tell me what is on your mind
Help me because I'd like to know
What the hell is going on
Never thought I'd sing this song

Lets not get started with
The he said she said
Sometimes it just doesn't go as planned
Lets not get started with
The he said she said
Sometimes it just doesn't go as planned

Started out so simple and innocent
So simple and innocent
(So simple and innocent)
(So simple and innocent)

Chemistry like apple and cinnamon
Like apple and cinnamon
(Like apple and cinnamon)
(Like apple and cinnamon)

I can't believe that you and me were falling out of love
And everybody used to be so envious of us

Chemistry like apple and cinnamon
What we had was just to good, good to last

Happiness don't last that long
What we had was beautiful

Lets not get started with
The he said she said
Sometimes it just doesn't go as planned

Started out so simple and innocent
So simple and innocent
(So simple and innocent)
(So simple and innocent)

Chemistry like apple and cinnamon
Like apple and cinnamon
(Like apple and cinnamon)
(Like apple and cinnamon)

I can't believe that you and me were falling out of love
And everybody used to be so envious of us

Chemistry like apple and cinnamon
What we had was just to good, good to last

Please don't look at me like that
Please don't look at me, don't look at me like that
You can't look at me like that
Please don't look at me, don't look at me like that

I can't believe that you and me were falling out of love
And everybody used to be so envious of us

Chemistry like apple and cinnamon
What we had was just to good

Started out so simple and innocent
So simple and innocent
(So simple and innocent)
(So simple and innocent)

Chemistry like apple and cinnamon
Like apple and cinnamon
(Like apple and cinnamon)
(Like apple and cinnamon)

I can't believe that you and me were falling out of love
And everybody used to be so envious of us

Chemistry like apple and cinnamon
What we had was just to good, good to last

somehow it seems like weekend always pass by very fast. and weekdays very slow.
why is it so?
is like a blink of an eye is time for me to go back.

how i wish i can have the control from the show "click" then i can fast forward my current lifestyle away. haix.

getting all moody...

missyaso....

my 21st bday party at my house was a great success.

thanks to all those that came and attended the party! =))
and thanks for all the presents. well at least i got one oof my wishlist presents. a DSLR camera! haha. Canon 450D EOS. Time for me to experiment with it and play ard with it. haha.

well shall rest up. tired frm all the running ard. thanks once again to all

if only you were here...

ok im offically sick.
went to the doc today. and it seems i have caught a NORMAL flu. thank goodness for that. coz was scared it will turn out to be h1n1. but its not. phew

had a fever of 38.0 degrees. quite high actually. and was given MC for 6 days. so in other words 1 whole week at home to rest myself up.

well. i guess the lack of sufficent slp has finally taken a toll on my body and immune system. well. time for me to get back some of my rest now.

Haha. Been some time since i last updated my blog. Was too busy playing with my ps3 and reading online mangas and was lazy to update. Haha
Anw can start counting down to one of a happening event this week. Haha. 6 more days. Wheee.
Somehow the new iphone 3gs is tempting me to buy it. Haha. If only i can get it as my present. Wahaha. *evil grin*
Besides this nothing much happened lately. Feeling quite uncomfortable now. Sense that im falling sick soon. Sensing a fever coming up. Feeling damn warm internally and sorethroat. Crap. Juz hope is nothing serious

finally im back.
3 weeks out of singapore. really miss home. and now im finally back!
well. been quite an experience trip.

well now tats is finally over. next thing that i will look forward to will be my very own 21th bday, which is juz round the corner. however still in the process of how to celebrate.
as for bday presents. hmmm. cant really think of much for now below are just some suggestions. haha

*some quite impossible bday presnts*
- a DSLR camera
- a HD tv (lolx)
- a nitendo DS (this is quite a random one i suddenly think of which i dont really have high desire to have)
- an iphone (another random one. but i dont mind having one if really have. ha)
- a ps3 game? (yet another random)

more or less just some random things that i thought of. overall is the thoughts that counts. haha
now is time for me to have some rest.

well i do have an ultimate bday present that i wish for.
but shall not say

Finally manage to get a quick use of the net
Will be back home soon. In like another 3 more days and will touch down at ard 7+am. Cant wait to go home. Miss my bed and my room
Well hope to see everyone soon!