i have reached the end of the road.
now lost with no where and no idea to go
why am i so stupid to continue knowing whats at the end with all the pieces i have and guessing it correctly.

i guess the emptiness within me will nvr be filled.
after all. everything, after trying so hard. really ended up only as my wishful thinking.
guess no happy fairy tale ending can ever happen to me.
numb? blocked out? i do not know.

i guess its time for me to fall back into darkness and my old emo self once more.
blocking everything out with a fake mask of smile.

end...
for those who do not understand this feeling and do not know anything at all. pls save ur comments to yourself

jigsaw puzzle pieces falls into place
the picture is out with just a guess
all the best
my blessings...

something is on my mind right now.
i wonder what im thinking now is true.
if i can just have more clues.
if i can just ask you directly.
it seems alot of things are going in thru my head now.
i wonder if they are true.
if only i can just ask you.
envious...

i just hope that if there is anything i can know
the truth?
so that all knots will be untied...

blah...

i guess if anything happens i wont be missed by anyone. crap...

semi- personal post coming up

firstly. a insperational video i came across on facebook. if only i had saw this vid sooner. maybe...
http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/video/video.php?v=103965021495&ref=nf

now maybe i will be happier? never know...

if only i can just talk to you.
if only i can do something to know what is going on.
if only i can just be by your side.
if only i can do such things for you.
if only...

New english album by Utada Hikaru. one song that really stuck in my head and i find it real nice. below is the song

Utada Hikaru - Apple and Cinnamon
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Tell me what is on your mind
Help me because I'd like to know
What the hell is going on
Never thought I'd sing this song

Lets not get started with
The he said she said
Sometimes it just doesn't go as planned
Lets not get started with
The he said she said
Sometimes it just doesn't go as planned

Started out so simple and innocent
So simple and innocent
(So simple and innocent)
(So simple and innocent)

Chemistry like apple and cinnamon
Like apple and cinnamon
(Like apple and cinnamon)
(Like apple and cinnamon)

I can't believe that you and me were falling out of love
And everybody used to be so envious of us

Chemistry like apple and cinnamon
What we had was just to good, good to last

Happiness don't last that long
What we had was beautiful

Lets not get started with
The he said she said
Sometimes it just doesn't go as planned

Started out so simple and innocent
So simple and innocent
(So simple and innocent)
(So simple and innocent)

Chemistry like apple and cinnamon
Like apple and cinnamon
(Like apple and cinnamon)
(Like apple and cinnamon)

I can't believe that you and me were falling out of love
And everybody used to be so envious of us

Chemistry like apple and cinnamon
What we had was just to good, good to last

Please don't look at me like that
Please don't look at me, don't look at me like that
You can't look at me like that
Please don't look at me, don't look at me like that

I can't believe that you and me were falling out of love
And everybody used to be so envious of us

Chemistry like apple and cinnamon
What we had was just to good

Started out so simple and innocent
So simple and innocent
(So simple and innocent)
(So simple and innocent)

Chemistry like apple and cinnamon
Like apple and cinnamon
(Like apple and cinnamon)
(Like apple and cinnamon)

I can't believe that you and me were falling out of love
And everybody used to be so envious of us

Chemistry like apple and cinnamon
What we had was just to good, good to last

somehow it seems like weekend always pass by very fast. and weekdays very slow.
why is it so?
is like a blink of an eye is time for me to go back.

how i wish i can have the control from the show "click" then i can fast forward my current lifestyle away. haix.

getting all moody...

missyaso....

my 21st bday party at my house was a great success.

thanks to all those that came and attended the party! =))
and thanks for all the presents. well at least i got one oof my wishlist presents. a DSLR camera! haha. Canon 450D EOS. Time for me to experiment with it and play ard with it. haha.

well shall rest up. tired frm all the running ard. thanks once again to all

if only you were here...