finally im back.
3 weeks out of singapore. really miss home. and now im finally back!
well. been quite an experience trip.

well now tats is finally over. next thing that i will look forward to will be my very own 21th bday, which is juz round the corner. however still in the process of how to celebrate.
as for bday presents. hmmm. cant really think of much for now below are just some suggestions. haha

*some quite impossible bday presnts*
- a DSLR camera
- a HD tv (lolx)
- a nitendo DS (this is quite a random one i suddenly think of which i dont really have high desire to have)
- an iphone (another random one. but i dont mind having one if really have. ha)
- a ps3 game? (yet another random)

more or less just some random things that i thought of. overall is the thoughts that counts. haha
now is time for me to have some rest.

well i do have an ultimate bday present that i wish for.
but shall not say

Finally manage to get a quick use of the net
Will be back home soon. In like another 3 more days and will touch down at ard 7+am. Cant wait to go home. Miss my bed and my room
Well hope to see everyone soon!

off to brunei soon..
back on 26th which is 3wks. wish me all the best.

gonna miss lots of things and you

people have told me many different things
i wish to follow what they say and im reall trying to
however everything is just not falling into place
i am really reaching my limit
i am really scared that im losing it soon. losing my sanity
i am scared now...

Give me a box...
Give me a small room where i can be alone and isolate myself...
Feeling all stressed up...
If only i have a small room to myself where i can de-stress by letting my tears flow for abit...

quick summary of my week...

Outfield from tues to thur - no comments about it
Watched Distant Worlds: Music from Final Fantasy orchestra concert at esplanade yesterday - Truely Awsome
Bought my long awaited PS3 yesterday - finally burden is gone
well thats a short and quick summary of my week

not to mention been feeling quite down this week due to some incident(s)
well i donno wad i shld say about it
all i know is i hope i can recover both mentally and physically..

Oh and not to mention my uni applications are all rejected again...

some how sometimes i just feel like talking abt things to someone.
but somehow i just cant find anyone that can allow me to do this
it just seems that every phase of my life i have a period where things just starts to bottle up
it seems that i tried. but yet it seems i didnt
now i have no idea which path to take
i guess im tired once more after all these tries...
how i wish im able to share my bottled thoughts...

not a good week for me...
actually is juz tiring week for me.
didnt really have much rest this week. thus i think is the cause of my heat exhaustion today morning.

having a heat exhaustion is no fun at all. felt totally energy-less. and all my limbs were all numb and have totally no energy to do anything. not even stand up. oh not to mention. i felt hot and cold not stop. its like im feeling hot. the next min im feeling cold. the next min im feeling hot again. the experience totally sucks.

well had 2 bags of IV drips. felt much better after that. so i guess everything is fine now.