people have told me many different things
i wish to follow what they say and im reall trying to
however everything is just not falling into place
i am really reaching my limit
i am really scared that im losing it soon. losing my sanity
i am scared now...

Give me a box...
Give me a small room where i can be alone and isolate myself...
Feeling all stressed up...
If only i have a small room to myself where i can de-stress by letting my tears flow for abit...

quick summary of my week...

Outfield from tues to thur - no comments about it
Watched Distant Worlds: Music from Final Fantasy orchestra concert at esplanade yesterday - Truely Awsome
Bought my long awaited PS3 yesterday - finally burden is gone
well thats a short and quick summary of my week

not to mention been feeling quite down this week due to some incident(s)
well i donno wad i shld say about it
all i know is i hope i can recover both mentally and physically..

Oh and not to mention my uni applications are all rejected again...

some how sometimes i just feel like talking abt things to someone.
but somehow i just cant find anyone that can allow me to do this
it just seems that every phase of my life i have a period where things just starts to bottle up
it seems that i tried. but yet it seems i didnt
now i have no idea which path to take
i guess im tired once more after all these tries...
how i wish im able to share my bottled thoughts...

not a good week for me...
actually is juz tiring week for me.
didnt really have much rest this week. thus i think is the cause of my heat exhaustion today morning.

having a heat exhaustion is no fun at all. felt totally energy-less. and all my limbs were all numb and have totally no energy to do anything. not even stand up. oh not to mention. i felt hot and cold not stop. its like im feeling hot. the next min im feeling cold. the next min im feeling hot again. the experience totally sucks.

well had 2 bags of IV drips. felt much better after that. so i guess everything is fine now.

David Archuleta - Crush
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I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside it was a rush, what a rush

Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way
About me, just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
Cause I've tried and tried to walk away
But I know this crush ain't going away-ay-ay
Going away-ay-ay

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl?
Are we just friends? Is there more? Is there more?

See it's a chance we've gotta take
Cause I believe that we can make this into
Something that will last, last forever, forever!

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we could be, where this thing could go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
Cause I've tried and tried to walk away
But I know this crush ain't going away-ay-ay
Going away-ay-ay

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we could be, where this thing could go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
Cause I've tried and tried to walk away
But I know this crush ain't going away-ay-ay
This crush ain't going away-ay-ay

Going away
Going away-ay-ay
Going away-ay-ay


nice song. think this song was like out for quite some time. only now i manage to find it. as the pass few times when i heard it. either i forgot the song title or forgot to search for it. ha

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY to all mom out there
esp to my very own mom =))

somehow this week after booking out. i feel quite emo for wad reason i dont know. is it stress im feeling now?

it feels that im invisible and whether im around or not is not important at all. to the extent where even if im to juz walk away no one will even notice at all. and in the end be forgotten. it just seems that only when im needed to help do something where i will juz pop back up in ppl mind and i will not be invisible. However rite after the thing is done. *poof* im inivisble again for who knows how long again before im needed.
all these juz seem to show how insignificant i am and how unimportant i am to everyone. well i donno. all these juz feel so de javu. like being all alone once again with no one around me. and all the things i did are all back to square one...

random...

somehowsometimesireallywishtotalktoyou
howeveritjuzseemsicantevenifitried
juzwhenitfeelsdifferent
everythingisnowbacktohowitwasbefore
iguessimjustnotasclose
ifonlyicanjustsaythisout...

another long weekend for me due to labour day. whee. haha. but somehow this long weekend seem to go past very fast. haix. and next thing i know i gotta go back again.

well anw didnt really do much during this weekend expect for going out. haha did nothing much too.

well wnt for supper juz now at katong HK cafe and did something interesting. and you can see from the photo below. haha

i believe many of u have see this trick b4 of the dollar note "smiling" but why am i emphazing on this photo. is all due to the fact that i used my camera phone face detection and smile shutter function and to our surprise it recognise it as a smile and *snap* off goes my camera. haha. well i guess that the most interesting thing happened to me this week.

well. not i shall go emo till my time is up to go back....

wonder when?
go out?