i have reached the end of the road.
now lost with no where and no idea to go
why am i so stupid to continue knowing whats at the end with all the pieces i have and guessing it correctly.

i guess the emptiness within me will nvr be filled.
after all. everything, after trying so hard. really ended up only as my wishful thinking.
guess no happy fairy tale ending can ever happen to me.
numb? blocked out? i do not know.

i guess its time for me to fall back into darkness and my old emo self once more.
blocking everything out with a fake mask of smile.

end...
for those who do not understand this feeling and do not know anything at all. pls save ur comments to yourself

jigsaw puzzle pieces falls into place
the picture is out with just a guess
all the best
my blessings...

something is on my mind right now.
i wonder what im thinking now is true.
if i can just have more clues.
if i can just ask you directly.
it seems alot of things are going in thru my head now.
i wonder if they are true.
if only i can just ask you.
envious...

i just hope that if there is anything i can know
the truth?
so that all knots will be untied...

blah...

i guess if anything happens i wont be missed by anyone. crap...

semi- personal post coming up

firstly. a insperational video i came across on facebook. if only i had saw this vid sooner. maybe...
http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/video/video.php?v=103965021495&ref=nf

now maybe i will be happier? never know...

if only i can just talk to you.
if only i can do something to know what is going on.
if only i can just be by your side.
if only i can do such things for you.
if only...