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ok now i have officially come to a point of dillusions in my head.

whether or not to continue down the commandos path. with some of my mates oso having this dillusions it have hit me too now.

I really wonder if i will be able to take it and continue the path. as some things that will happen in future i really do not know if i will be able to not fall out and complete the event. i am really now doubting my physical, and mental strength.
So far i have only barely brisk pass all the criteria to move on to the phase of commando training. i am now thinking how long more can i keep up doing this. i think at one point of time i will really not be able to meet the requirement to continue on.

seriously now all my motivations are all slowly disappearing and i do not know when my mind will just tell me to give up totally. it may happen anytime i suppose. and seriously im tired. both mentally and physically with all the non-stop training.. i really wish to have a good rest. but i cant..

now i can say im really stressed and not sure what i want. it really getting too physical and mentally demanding for me. what shld i do? feeling very stress now...

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