3 more days. ahhhhhh.... i dont want to go back to camp!!!

man really miss my poly days. when passing by TP or seeing poly students in the public juz make me think back my own poly days and really miss them. how nice that can turn back time juz to relive those fun times again. where everything is in your own control. total freedom. and can mend some mistakes that can be avoided. like being hardworking starting frm yr 1 instead of starting in yr 2. heh heh.

well every year in my poly days seem so much fun. really want to relive it man. heh heh

now is go on wif my army life wif minimal freedom. hoping will zoom by fast. heh heh.
remb saying this to myself whn i was in poly that hoping the 3 yrs will fly pass fast. now i regret that and shld had hoped for it to be slow. heh heh.

oh wells. life still goes on. those will be good and nice memories that will last forever =)

-soon it will be ur turn-
-how is it now?-

finally a one week break for me frm all the training and all.

soon starting my airborne phase.

hmmm. once again im stress over wad i want. esp after hearing somethings from an instructor. i really wonder how long can i keep up. the criteria seems far to reach. thou i know i have constently reach all the criteria so far. but im really pressured on not being able to reach it sooner or later. this pressure juz keeps coming everytime a new criteria is announced.. and with the 2 most tiring tasks coming up next year. it even pressure me more to keep up with the rest and the pace
esp now im having a phobia of barbed wire due to me falling straight into the middle of a barbed wire. therefore leading to my current phobia of falling into it again. dang

well i juz hope somethings can happen to help me get back my confidence and motivation to push on. but i must say i have no idea hw have i survived for nearly 6mth now. haha. kinda glad abt it too thou..

-请告诉她我还想她.-
-reminiscing the past. puts a smile on me. =)-
-guess some motivation is you?-

shit happens...

im soo not looking forward to this sun.. crap

unless i get my repayment i wont mind coz that will all me to do extra stuffs.. haix

why do i always get this kind of shit... blah =((

woohoo. finally my medic course has ended. but kinda sad tat it ends so fast. and will really gonna miss my time during my medic course. but wad to do. life still goes on.

got my medic arm band. looks cool. haha. well at least now i got something on my uniform. haha. soon i will be getting another one. haha

next week is gonna do alot of errands to help other ppl who are on course and help them with thier exercises and all. but well will look forward to my 1 wk break after that. haha

i really hope now i can get attached to HQ to be a medic over there. lots of reason why i want and lots of ppl thinking of the same as me. haha. but oh wells. shall see how things go.

Finally my medic course has ended. Will be having a graduation ceremony tml to get our scroll of certificate(kinda like uni) haha. And will get my medic arm band. Heh heh
Had our last and final IV injection. And is the worse and most painful IV. due to the fact my muscle and nerve was poked. Now my left arm is damn pain. Having the bruise feeling. Even juz brushing my finger over it is damn pain. So guess will be doing most work on my right arm only for a few days. Shall stop here and post again after book out. Shall go for my nights out now. Heh heh

Whee hoo! Finally my basic airborne course selection test is over. And the best thing of it is i manage to pass it, thou having some pressure and set backs on not being able to pass my push up station. But never the less i manage to pass. Whee!
This means i will be going for my basic airborne course which will start on 3rd dec (damn why it start on this date. Dang. Abit sad. Cant execute my plan. Haha)
Another good news will be i will be getting my back pay after my medic course. Double yeah! Haha
Ok super uber tired. Shall slp and rest now...

first week of medic combat phase. tiring carrying heavy loads ard. as we learnt how to carry casulties to evacuate them. and i sprain my back while doing one of the pratice. haha. lucky for me it was only a minor sprain. had back ache when i do any body movements for the past 2 days. now still having some minor aches, but well its recovering.

in another 3 more days i will be taking my Basic Airborne Selection Test. im damn scared that i will fail the test due to my pushups. but well i juz hope i can pass. even thou is juz barely pass, but still pass. haha

soon medic course will come to an end, then is next phase of my training, Airborne course, provided i pass the test. haha

well not really looking forward to it, as im still emo-ing of my path and feeling tired still. so i donno...

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