mistake again

writing this due to the fact tat i heard and saw some things at home...

whn i walk out of my room i juz saw both of thm in tears. which really shocks me. and was wondering what the hell happened. but the atmosphere at tat time was very tense and very akaward and juz wnt back to my room to think what can happen by trying to piece together bits and pieces of jig-saw and make sense out of it. but failed.
kept thinking if i shld ask wads going on. but i juz cant. and really wish to help but i do not know whr to start. so ended up thinking for one whole night. and thinking wad can i do...

thn after which heard their conversation. and more or less got an idea of wads going on. thn here comes another decision of to carry on to evedrop or not or to step in to ask and say something. or to juz ignore everything. so i chose the last option in the end. so now i do not know how are things going on.

(i really wonder why does she still clinging on so tightly. things have alrdy happen. u cant do anyting now anymore. and its totally not worth your time to do all tis. yes i do not know the feeling of being tgt with someone. but i do know the feeling of rejection, and sadness more thn anyone else in here. i agree tat u do not have any goals not target right now. u're juz wandering. and juz let the days go pass one after another. wad is the point of holding on to something tat is alrdy gone. so please juz forget everything and let it be juz memories. or not is up to you. concentrate on other things. set a goal or target for urself and try to achieve it. it will help. go do things. like cont the things in the clubs u joined. there is a big forest out there. giving up juz for a tree tat no longer bare leaves is a total waste. juz get urself out of tat state thou i wish i can do the same for myself but i cant. and u will be less stress in wadever u do)
i really wish to help her. but i cant. is all up to herself. i juz feel useless and lousy with only words but no actions. and all i can do is thinking and more thinking...

thn there is oso one last decision tat i made online. and sadly i made a wrong decision and made a mistake i done before once again. saying without thinking. now i wonder wad can i do to make it up. haix.

decisions can be painful at times.. it depends on wad decision it is...