emo-ing

i know and i confirms that i understand everyting.
i know what is happening.
i know the meanings.

but it juz seems tat i cant control my emotions.
but it juz seems tat my emotions have a mind of its own.
but it juz seems tat i cant help feeling this way.

BUT i really do know and understand everything.

it seems like i have been left out again.
it seems like there is a barrier around me again.
it seems like im thinking alot and lost again.

BUT i really do not wish to do all this. but i just cant help it.

i really wish to go back and mend the mistakes.
i really wish to go back in time and to that period of time.
i really wish things will go back to how we were last time.

BUT i know i cant go back to the past. onli forward.

now i can onli wish things to change for the better.
now i can onli wish we can be like the past.
now i can onli wish the happy times can come back.

BUT i will not cancel out the fact that i still have ______________

i will continue to be who i am.
i will continue to be a support.
i will continue to be there when needed.

AND i will leave everything to time and fate and hope things will change.

-looking back in the past. i was very happy thn. however i did not charish it and i had lost all tat good times which i can have. i really wish i can achieve it back again. -