life moving on

1 wk have passed since the end of the IT project show in sch. seems like some of my frens things are going well for thm. some achieved their goals, some had started working, some are going overseas, and there are some happily staying at home slacking around playing games. cool =D

so wad abt me? all the things i mentioned abv, abit of me wants each of it. abit of this abit of that. indecive. hehe
but one thing i must say is that i have changed. in my view. to the bad. seems like recently been in a foul mood and easily loses my temper, taking everyting said to me quite seriously. and whn im not in a bad mood. i do not have the mood to do anything, which in turn after a while im back to be in a bad mood once again.
WHY?!? WHY do i become like this?!?! is it due to the recent things that happened to me? but its always has been there isnt it? Is it because im running away from the problems and this is my way to escape and deny it? If so why am i running? why dont i have the courage to face the problem right in the face?

oh god please help me out here. which is which. right and wrong. white and black. what should i do? help...